Little chat….

Hello my lovely audience of cat people!

So… Just thought I’d let you know. I know I’ve been letting you guys down with posts lately, I’ve been trying my best. But honestly, I have so much on my mind, like school and other crap, so I’ve decided to take a short break until the holidays come up.. Some of you may be upset, I know, and I completely understand if you don’t want to wait that long and unfollow me or whatever, that’s totally fine. I’m just under a lot of stress from school and family and other shit, so I just want to take some time off to get my head into gear… I hope you can all understand that. 🙂

I just want to be able to produce good content for all of you guys, because you have done so much for me. And I don’t want to post when I’m thinking about other crap, because I feel like I go off-track and ramble on about stuff, kind of like now… Hehe, sorry 😀

So, for those of you who do not wish to continue the journey, I completely understand and I’m sorry I’ve let you down. For those of you that do stick around, make sure to tune in to me finishing off the challenge from the 26th of September onwards and some more things. If you have any suggestions for future content, please do so in the comments, I’d love some ideas!

I love you all~! ❤

MEOW! =^.^=

Advertisements

Day 15: A letter to the person you miss the most

Hello my lovely cat people!

I wouldn’t say that I miss this person the most, but I miss the times I had with him… Hope you enjoy and I love you all~! ❤ 

MEOW! =^.^=

~~

Dear Tate,

To be honest, I miss the times we had last term. I miss the times when you held me close and didn’t let me go. I miss the way you used to look at me when we were together, I really do. This is probably the most stupid confession, but I don’t care, I just hope you know I miss you. 

I understand that you are busy with studying and seeing your friends. I have no problem with that, and I am not playing the role of a “jealous girlfriend”. But saying hello at school to me once in a while, or even messaging me from time to time without me constantly doing it myself, would be really great and I could at least see that you still care about our friendship. It’s true that we aren’t as close as we were last term, I don’t know why. I hope it’s study and not something that I’ve done to annoy or upset you. That is my worst fear. But for so long, because you haven’t talked to me, I just thought that you were avoiding me and that you got tired of me. I hope that is not the case, because you still call me your friend (I hope).

I am not trying to be in a relationship with you, that is not my intention and I know it’s not yours. But knowing that you will be there for me when I need you would be really helpful and nice to know, because at the moment, I just feel like you are not there for me. That’s what friends do – they look out for each other… I hope we can do that. 

Please talk to me more often, I would appreciate it a lot.

Sasha. 

Day 14: A letter to someone you’ve drifted away from

Hello my lovely cat people!

There are a lot of people that I have drifted away from, but a group of my friends are the ones that I feel particularly far away from. So this is going to be a letter about that. Hope you enjoy and I love you all~! ❤

MEOW! =^.^=

~~

Dear Friends,

I wish I could be as close with you as I was last year. I remember all those funny lunchtimes we had with each other and how we discussed the most random things, from games to school and so much more. We had our downs, of course, like any other friendships, but we were always there for each other and we were unbreakable.

But this year is when things really started to change. I didn’t want to leave the group, I didn’t feel like it was the right thing to do, despite what some other people have told me, and I really liked spending time with you guys. But what really pushed me over the line, was being humiliated and being pushed down. I am not angry with any one of you, I still feel like you are my friends, my best friends, and I know I can trust you with my life. I just hope you feel the same. But being made fun of for liking the way my make-up looks on me, even when someone else doesn’t, is something that friends don’t do. I know you know who I’m talking about, and I’m not saying it’s your fault. But being in the same group as that person had really made me think about what to do next. So I decided to leave… Thinking about it now, it was not the best way I could’ve handled the situation, as we aren’t as close now as we were last year. However, I still feel like I can trust you, as I said before. I hope you can come to me for advice, and I can come to you for advice. You guys are an amazing bunch of people, whom I love greatly and the memories made with you I will never forget. We have had some of the best times and I hope we will have a lot more, even if I barely spend any lunchtimes with you anymore. I hope you know that.

I love you guys, I hope you can say the same about me.

Sasha. 

Day 13: A letter to someone you wish could forgive you

Hello my lovely cat people!
So I don’t actually think that I have caused someone a great deal of pain, as I consider myself a pretty good friend. So this is going to be an improvisation letter. Hope you enjoy and I love you all~! ❤

MEOW! =^.^=

~~

Dear Jacob,

I am sorry. I am so sorry for doing this to you. What you must have felt at the moment you found me with him must have been heartbreaking. Maybe even more than heartbreaking. In fact, I can’t imagine what that must feel like, I can only fully understand the full extent of my damage if you were to cheat on me. But, why did it have to be me? I don’t know… I thought I was satisfied with our relationship, but clearly, something wasn’t quite right. And it’s stupid of me to blame it on the large amounts of alcohol, as taking it was also my fault.

Honestly, I don’t know what I was thinking at the time, I didn’t feel like I was in control. But I think what hurt you most was seeing me… with him… and not with you. 

Remember those days, those very first days, when we would just sit in the park and look up at the sky during daylight? And then, in summer, we would go to the same park and watch the stars and the moon on a little rug, drinking smoothies and milkshakes. We were laughing and we were happy. I was happy. 

I don’t know what the change was in our relationship, but suddenly, after summer break, I didn’t feel as close to you as I did any other time. I decided to ignore that feeling, but it couldn’t be ignored – it had suddenly occurred to me that we had not been intimate for the entire time we were dating. And I know that I told you I would wait for you until you were ready, but inside, I was burning up. I didn’t want to wait any longer and I couldn’t contain myself. That feeling of impatience is probably what I regret the most.

I know that a letter of my inner thoughts and feelings is nothing compared to the act. But I didn’t know how else to get your attention, because you wouldn’t talk to me. I am not expecting us to be together anymore, but if you could try and forgive me so that we could become friends, or even acquaintances again, that would mean the world to me. I know you’re a good person, Jacob, a better person than I am anyway. And I wanted to let you know that I was happy with you, more happy with you than anyone else.

I will always love you,

Yana.  

Day 12: A letter to someone who has caused you a lot of pain

Hello my lovely cat people!

This one is going to be tough… I’ll try and not rage too much…. 

I love you all~! ❤

MEOW! =^.^=

~~

Dear Rick,

I thought I’d let you know that I really don’t like you… But it hasn’t always been that way. We started out as friends and we were pretty close. I mean, at first, it was slightly awkward, because one of our mutual friends introduced us to each other. You were so shy back then, I thought you were really nice. Then, after a while, you’d start hanging out with our group. We liked you, we all thought you were funny.

Then, we became best friends: we all went to the movies as a big group, we’d laugh at lunchtimes, we’d make really inappropriate jokes (well, you would, mostly) and we would just simply have fun. Then, all the shit started to happen. That all started when you asked one of my closest friends out at the time. She was shy and scared, but you kept clinging onto other girls and talking to everyone apart from her. I made the mistake of clinging onto you too much, that is what I regret the most. 

At the end of the year, we were still close, we exchanged numbers and then the summer holidays came. I had barely heard from you over the break and you said we would meet up, but we never did. When the new school year started, you would barely talk to me again, you just went on to your other friends and ignored our whole entire group. You wouldn’t even say hi anymore. You have hurt two of my closest friends, I hope you will not do that again to any of your friends ever. 

One thing that really pissed me off though, even more than you ignoring us, was you making fun of my friends. That is taking it way too far. If you ever make fun of my friends again, I will not back down, I hope you remember that. 

To all the people that don’t see your act, I feel very sorry for, as they will probably go through the same pain we did. And whilst I know that these problems aren’t nearly as serious as what countless other people go through, for us at the time it was very emotional and losing a really close friend was terrible.

I hope you have changed. For good.

Sasha. 

Day 11: A letter to a deceased (dead) person you wish you could talk to

Hello my lovely cat people!

Sorry this is late, fell asleep yesterday… :\ But anyway, hope you enjoy!

I love you all~! ❤

MEOW! =^.^=

P.S. In the letter, I refer to my great-grandfather as grandpa, and my great-grandmother as grandma. 

~~

Dear grandpa,

I wish you were still here with us. I miss you a lot, but not every day. It gets a bit easier to let you go, but your sudden death was horrible… And I didn’t even get to say goodbye.

It’s funny how you think of things you could have said to someone after they are gone. I could have said, “I love you” more, and I could have spent more time with you, but I didn’t. This is probably something that I regret the most. However, in saying that, I was happy to have typed up your memoir on my laptop, as I know that could be something to read over in the near future.

You were such a special person in my life. I remember when I was young, we would always play with each other, where I would pretend to be a teacher and you and grandma would be my students; or I would pretend to be a dog and you would be the owner. We would build forts out of pillows and would play together; we would watch TV and you would read me stories at night. You would tell me of the times you were at war and how you would teach your students. I was always so excited to spend time with you and every second I’d play with you I would be happy. I was also happy when you flew over all the way to Australia and stayed with us for your 90th birthday. You were such an inspiration to me and will forever remain in my heart. I just wish I could hug you again, or go for a walk with you, or read, or do anything.

It’s funny how you miss things or people after they are gone… I will always miss you, but a little less every year. I hope you are in a good place, wherever you are.

I love you, grandpa.

 

Day 10: A letter to someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Hello my lovely cat people!

Here’s a letter to an acquaintance of mine. Hope you enjoy!

I love you all~! ❤

MEOW! =^.^=

~~

Dear Craig,

I’m writing this letter to you in hopes of us talking slightly more. You are an amazing and a funny guy, whom I’d love to get to know better. I’m sorry if I was ever rude or impolite to you, I really am. You are pretty damn talented and I wish I could write songs as well as you do… I also hope that you have people that you can really trust, in fact, I know you do. But I just wanted to say that I wanted to be in that trust circle. I’d love to get to know you better, because you are always so nice to me! So I just want to return the favour. I hope that one day, we can be really good friends who always look out for each other.

All the best and good luck with everything.

From,

Sasha.